The Hopeless Romantic
By definition a hopeless romantic is someone who no matter how much they wish they could, simply cannot give up on love. They can be hurt countless times, and nevertheless, they always come back for second servings. However, being a hopeless romantic is tough and that is so true! Like many individuals, I have experienced relationships that I thought would last forever and some that only lasted for a short period of time. I had this grand idea that if I showed the other person the world and gave them love, compassion, quality time, and showered them with heartfelt gifts and symbols of my affection for them that they would stick around and show me the same! WRONG! I found myself giving and giving as any hopeless romantic would, hoping to be loved and to receive the same love I would dish out over and over. I can remember one time when I was dating my high school boyfriend and at the time we were living in two different states because of where we decided to attend college and though the distance made things harder, I wanted to try my best to make him feel as if I was still in the relationship. I had planned this surprise trip to drive 6 hours from Mississippi to Texas and arrange a private candlelight dinner for the two of us inside his dorm room. As a college student, you are limited in funds but you make the most of what you have, you know! However, when I arrived, I was taken back by the sight of my “boyfriend” out with another woman. I was heart broken more than I was frustrated because as someone who desires love and all that comes with it; you only hope that the love you’re giving is the same love you’re receiving. Yet, that didn’t pan out the way I would have hope so onto the next relationship. This time I was dealing with someone who knew nothing about giving love and as a woman and hopeless romantic, I wanted to be the first person to change his views on love and encourage him to express his feelings more than he had ever before. However, the only problem with a relationship between a person who expresses their romantic side often and a person who never expresses their emotions is we would never be on the same page because he wouldn’t be able to give me what I needed and I could never turn him into something he wasn’t. Another love lost and another hopeless romantic still out trying to find love.
Fast forward to today, I recently moved to a new state and landed an opportunity of a lifetime working on a movie entitled I Remember You; which is based on a love story between two strangers finding love after experiencing life-changing moments in their lives. Having to research and explore different experiences of love and interview people who are in love, who have fell in love, or have met their soul mate, I've come to the conclusion that this hopeless romantic has not found her prince charming just yet. I will continue to wish and hope for things to come and one day be able to express how I feel to that special person with no regrets or anything holding me back. As a hopeless romantic, you have to be hopeful not only for love but for the future as well. You have to understand what you need from a person and what you should automatically receive when looking for or dealing with love. After all my years of searching, dating, and being hopeful that one day I will encounter the love of my life; I’ve come to the realization that the things that a woman should receive from a man who truly admires her spirit, loves her inside and out, and wants to grow with her would put forth effort unlike this world. It’s as if two hopeless romantics found each other in a sea of dying love and made it to the promise land of a long life together. I guess you can say, I am still looking for my fairytale ending; hoping that the love of my life is out there waiting for me as I am waiting for him! To all the hopeless romantics out there, continue to live in love, be for love, and know that though it’s a tough road to find love, it’s totally worth in the end when you finally get to say these three little words: I Love You!